and i move to another seat in the far north corner

While the madness came in i don't know why also things in my life gets corroded slowly

eroded...

people pass by... and insecurities in the middle of the people i'm comfortable of

Life is just as the shallow meaning as the life itself

life as just the meaning of surviving and struggling to live

i believe there must be someone somewhere someday out there understand what is the meaning behind these words

and i believe there is a hills for a resting place

you're just here for a short visit

make sure you breathe the air deeper, smell the flowers around

smile to strangers and someone new for every each new days

Just... A blabs in the library

Madness goes around my days

and no days in my days that doesn't have madness

sometimes i said to myself why am i always being in the middle of these chaos

sometimes i want to got into an accident and gone

sometimes i turn myself into the most convenient place in the state of mind

sometimes i don't know whom i should turn into

i sunk myself into trouble, and i have no idea what awaits when the words are spoken

sometimes every single words, every single step that you should do isn't that easy

sometimes something should have been sacrificed

or you should have sacrifice something for something in return

i am the most positive person in the whole world, and i don't know why i'm surrounded in a madness

let me be the one i want, let me feel the things i wanted

lastbloodfromhell Never Get On The Line

a sentence, a word, a letter, a buzz would be valuable

let me know you're there if you are

#include void main printf("Could You Pass The Fucking Potato Please");

Another nerdy stuff me and my friends do was we started the sentences verbally with printf(" and ended with "); which a C++ language it's not time friendly but not bad for remembering attempt

haha i hope i can keep on with the pace of this native computer language

Right on! Keep some space for me Google!

Yesterday I Learned How To Speak In Korean From Youtube

Thank you for Hanna for the Greetings!

She was a great photographer, a good friend of mine, and of course a great girl for her boy :)

Take me and Michelle for a photo shoot sometimes if you don't mind

sincerely

Perpetual [I've Been Trying to Reach You] Oblivion

I got bad news and good news

Whats happening right now is i got a university

which i really like and i feel like really belong in there the thing that i didn't like is just the friends. Sometimes they were supportive but sometimes they made stagnated pose. When someone is greater than they are everyone start to tease when someone appeared a bit different everyone mocks for a weirdo

I wish i have an invisible cloak to cover me from they all. I wish i could talk to every single people i wanted to and avoid the one i don't feel like to talk.

Or maybe this is what social life offered us. A lesson that we have to put ourself in the right place in order to survive.

Is it selfish to say that i don't want friends, i just want close friends like 2 or 3 of them and my family. I hate going back to socialize

The sad thing is i've been struggling for 3 years to get the best medical program in the country but no i didn't keep it on. If a doctor is a success and intelligence measurement so if you want to find smart peoples they were nesting in a building called Hospital. Whatever it is my measurement of my success lies in my dream and my goal. If you have a dream work on it to the core and soon you will live it up.

Lately i got strange feeling like the future is obscured i don't know what is this called but it's not the first time i got this feeling. Like i can't imagine what lies in tomorrow and what i've done the minute before i think. Eid ul-Fitr everyone forgive and forget about what mistakes they done to each other. Not me, words hurts more than a dagger indeed. I let it bleed

WHO SAID I'M SHOUTING RIGHT NOW?

Life lately been obscured. I feel like i'd knocked by hypnotherapist then i've gotten away by my self control

I keep waking myself up... I never reach my consciousness

Then i realize that I was stuck in the most enormous and the longest lucid dream in human history

Uncountable deep inhale and exhale i did

I didn't know could i handle the shame when i keep going what i've been longing

or should i keep doing what I'm doing for another own happiness

the bad insomnia stuck back in a bad package and in the wrong time

I'm trying to fulfill what's needed to be a grown up go to college, working, and being a little wiser

I don't want to but i have to. Make choice, be real, and correction

Realize that you have to do something with a full force. You shouldn't split up your attention into several things

Realize that you can't use the time with all activity that you want

Realize how perfect you are by making choices

Then you will know, who you are in piece

A self portrait of myself