Trouble Sleeping. That's Like My Middle Name

I learned a lot for being positive by any means.
It means to keep smiling, to keep feeling alright.
Even the slightest sadness doesn't need to be present.

I learned a lot that a happiness came in a shape that i don't even expect. It came in any shape that so beautiful even that i want to protect it no matter what happens.

I learned that there's no need to be exaggerating little things for it become a big obstacle. It makes me and the people around me feels bad. It puts people into hard position.

I learned that i don't need to take everything seriously. I just need to follow my heart, my dreams, and my will to do the things i want and it will be so much better when you met someone that really appreciate your goals, support you no matter how bad it is or how impossible it is.

I learned that i need to stand on my ground and trust the people that can be trusted. If you found someone that can be trusted, never lose faith on them. If someone lets you down one time, there will be the thousandth time.

I learned that the more i live my life, the less i wrote about this blog. I keep this blog as a journal. I was sad every time i wrote a post in this blog. But i don't feel that sad more often. I do want people out there that doesn't even interact with me read this journal and felt the change of the way they are thinking. I want to know that. And i know that i can't stop writing when i do it.

I don't know where to stop. So i always end it like this.
:)

The Smell of Coffee and Breakfast

We're scared in some transitions in life
I can't sleep and i lit up my cigars
This is the last time i ever touched the cigars
Since i came back again when i started working
But, this day is the last time i ever work in that office

I will miss my surroundings, the people around, and the routine
At least good bye for now.

I'm sad so sad that i don't want to sleep and going on to the next day
I don't want to leave that office
I don't even want to walk away
But, i need to keep on going with life.

I keep being an ass on my last few days in that office
I don't want to stare their faces
I hate them instantly
But, they have become a part of my life.

I will be feeling this way until sometime in the future
And keep going on with my life
I let the wound bleed and dries when the air let it dries naturally
Rather than put a bandaid and see the scar for the rest of my life.

I thank them for being a part of my life,
And thank them for letting me to be a part of their life
At least, farewell for now.

Good bye

You Are That Special

There's nothing frightening about when you met people and you learned to get acquainted  to them,
get used to their behavior, get to know them better.
Theres nothing frightening knowing that they can leave you someday, sometime, some way.
They took those memories from you, those moments from you, a part of your life away.
It's not frightening if that happens.

You get those memories, love, and affection that you deserve,
And no one can understand those as you do.
You are that special for being loved by someone and you are special to love someone.
Even if that they someday leave you, it's just that... You both are just not meant to be
Not because it is not destined to be.
But it is the series of your behavior and choices within life.
It's your call, your decision.
You need to know that once you met someone in your life you've got to be prepared for when they leave you.
Never be afraid when you love someone, or someone loves you back.
You are that special.

There's a thin mistaken line between Fate and Luckiness

As the time goes by i learned that i am not the selectee nor am i destined to be with someone

Nothing in this world make a statement that we're destined to be with someone, doing something, be at one particular place or something made the arrangement for us for been at some particular place.

We as human has made the choice, decided to be somewhere, and desired to be with someone.

Fate itself just did it's role as a form of your name, your parents, and where you were borned.

You can't change that.

That was 3 things that fate gave us

Place where you were born. You can't choose where you were born like picking a clothes that you like. You can't change that either. Only with some legal paper but it is inevitable that the origin of you were.

Parents, yes you can't choose them either. You can't choose with whom you were raised and get acquainted to. You can't choose some cool rockstar that lived somewhere in Hollywood or somewhere in the middle of nowhere. You are here, with some money to access internet with your cool phones and quite lucky to have all of that.

Name, because it's inevitable that you were born with a designated name. You can't ask your parents to pick some cool name for you. Sadly, no.

But yes, other than that 3 were you choice. It's your call, your effort. Yes you can change that.

The Victory, The Rush

People forgiving each other

The roads are crowded

People came back to their homes with their families inside their head

The roads are crowded so does the air. It's full of noises

People are outside their homes. Celebrating what they call it as "the Victory"

People are inside their homes just to gather with their loved ones or just simply getting their time.

People are busy with their phones or just watching Raging Chopper Man in Discovery Turbo

People don't know how to spend their time with their loved ones

Or just fixing the stuttering words on their numb tongues.

People are numb just like their tongues

And people are dumb not to show love to their loved ones

Why Does Your Eyes Flickering Like Crazy When The Rockets Struck Your Eyes

I think i like someone. . .

She's not that good nor bad. She's the way she is. She is the one i think when i close and open my eyes. She's the one that makes my heart races.
Making straight faces, fooling around, and talk to for hours.
She's the one that keeps telling me that I'm the best when i did the worst.
She is the one, that hugs me shameless just to make me smile.
She is the one, that hugs me shameless
She's the one, that hugs me
She's the one

Level 42

I love my Dad for introducing me to this band

He always listens to great tunes when i was still in the elementary school

Bread, Level 42, The Eagles, Deep Purple, The Zombies, Tee Set, Joe Cockers, The Bee Gees, George Benson, Ozzy and stuff.

He is heavy to rock and Jazz

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