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University
that words haunting. Like a ghost. Look at these people who have a place that they routinely gone and see their friends there whether they know them or not they always saw them so they doesn't feel that they were lonely
Sometimes i feel like i wanted to study hard, but in fact I'm being steady. In one place, creased by a lack of concentration. You can't concentrate on more than two things at the same time so you have to put attention fully in one thing in one time. I know i know, let these words flow is easier than doing it

Sometimes i feel I'm a loser, a lot of time i feel I'm a big liar
No thing i can do to make those feelings gone
I'm a waste I'm a fleeting place to stay
Why am i have to be going in this way
No one will help me except myself
My own self

...
God, this is the last year, hear my voice. I want medical program Universitas Indonesia

Most Of My Time Spent Just For Making a Fool. Got a Problem With That?

I got a call on late night 

The phone rang

It is a friend of mine which is i just knew him from late 3 months

he pissed. Pissed because i don't take everything he said seriously

then this came out

A: "Why did you never get serious dude! Come on be serious!"

B: "No, i don't want to"

A: "So? Why?"

B: "If we're too serious we'll disappointed"

Silence

A: "Yeah it's right though.."

Who can stand hearing a story for guy fornicating, which is detailed? No one raise their hand

If there's no biological urge between a couple they might be not attracted to each other.

Curse sex before marriage!

It ruin everything, for example i know a boy who have a long distance relationship with his girlfriend they had been dating not for a long time, and then one evening the boy got a phone call 

*rang rang "Hello can we talk?" "Who is this?" "Oh this is Gerry" "I'm in the middle of a gig, how about call me later?" "Okay!" But then Gerry texted "The truth is i can't stand it being like this, i've been fulfilled her need" "what?" "I mean the last time i was in bed with her is 2 days ago" "Whoa whoa whoa what do you mean?" Then Gerry told it everything he hope that the boy can understand but broke down like uno stacks he was. What's the reason they've been asking about it while they still "a little more touch me". All the thing the boy said is "Where did you put my feelings to you while you doing that?"

Misused mistake

They Put A Plastic Bag Beside Me And Said "It's Uncommon To See You Alone Sir" And I Smiled

I explained about an ancient way to measure body to her that night when the TV streamed National Geographic Channel. Like a picture vitruvian man, the first drawing of human anatomy.

I said to her that she can measure her own height with just spreading her arms beside her elbow. She pays an attention that's good, and then i continued "It can measured from the edge of your longest finger which is your right middle finger to left mid..." but before i finished my words she done the same stance as i am then came closer, and wrap her hand on my body.

She asked that is it okay, she just wanted to done that but i said some words convinced her that it's not even a problem so i wrap my arms around her neck

On a moment of time all surrounding things made an elaborate musical composition in a form of rhythm. They coalesce as a song for a slow dance. The clock ticking matches the sound as we step making a circular movement changing place

I know how big she is how close our height is, she still small that time. Small enough to be in my arms. Feels nice maybe secure is the right word for that time. I can't get bored with it.

The greatest feeling of all time it is the feeling when i felt her cheek touching my cheek. It's just unbeatable. Words can't describe

Until she wanted a hollow patched for a moment, she cried, put her head upon my shoulder and then i held her back and rubbed back of her head i said "It's okay you're save now, you're with me"

Ear Plugged Doll Head, Comb The Fringeeee!

It almost 4 months passed since i lost the only one i have. It isn't nice not seeing them around. It reminds me to a point where me and him wanted to make a present. I remember he shows me how to deal with strings and needles, he teaches me and and after it finished he laughed
Remembering someone just making me down into status quo, steady situation. Where i regretting many things that never happen. I wish he's still with me i'll take him everywhere, i'll ask him to ride me anywhere, and i'll introduce him to the one i care. But He's gone
I just still can't forget these things. I'm bored being like this
And no one ever feel the same as him.

I could buy an Tickle Me Elmo doll, or Transformers voice changer mask to make me forget these things. But at certain point i wanted to show the cool stuffs to him. I wanted he saw the best stuff in the world for current time, but the fact he is safe now. I'm tired of mourning

My brother said "It's fine for being young and still have a lot of friends surrounds while you getting older they all gone, they living their live, they being individualist" and i've been starting to feel that. Maybe i just have to get a university so i can have many friends and got young friends so i can keep up with them my childish act. Well i after all i got one more friend, but he had changed because a girl and i think it's enough to make a proof that a girl changing a way people behave.

Is It Butterflies In My Stomach or I Just Wanted to Go To The Toilet?

A family no matter how bad your siblings and cousins treat you, torture you, they done all of that for your own good. But it's now genuinely have been going. Ah.. Wait i have my own liquor

Cheers!

Done...

Your family could have been betray you all the time even you feel ashamed when you found out that they able to make a crisscross upon your statement, they could have make an opposite statement about it or they made everything up

They could have made you fall into a deep hole and cover it with sands till your lung filled with it, till there is no chance for you to fix it. Or maybe you can do the opposite put a mice trap oh it's too cute let's try another word a burglar alarm? Nah too common Batman trap sounded nice to put there. It may looks like a forest pig trap but it's big so their chest could be bitten with that trap
Blitzkrieg should come if i contacted them to kill my relatives. I want them felt how does it feel if they accused for doing something they are not, and how does it feel if they emotionally depressed. Your own family could be turned out to your biggest enemy just because a girl and money

The best thing to survive is just believe in yourself
no one will make you get what you've been dreaming for except yourself

Keep trying :D

*Nah it's just a sweet ice tea

Pretty face Dutchmen blowing bagpipe "Where Is Rabbi I Will Have Blessed By Then"

There are three matters that caused humans brain degenerated. Most of them if they face these things they will forget how to think clearly, they doesn't even remember electricity bill, newspaper bill, and water bill to get paid. Or even they totally forget that He the one above there is watching their behavior

At first human created, a couple called Adam and Eve. As all the bible said Adam and eve was putted on a round planet filled with gases which figured out lately as an oxygen. What they are doing? They attracted to each other, not knowing the truth that if Adam is gay or opposite Eve is lesbian. Or it might because of at first on earth there's no electricity, no other person like scientist that could make an artificial skin that could make a chain so there's no sex store exist. She must had been having a hard time because there's no phalus shaped peg for satisfying herself? Oh she might forgot an eggplant. But if it happens there would be no me and you that have been destroying earth. They had done an activity to reproduce so they able to carry on their generation grow. Till there was a religious ages where saints, and holy people walking around the society. Nah forget it it getting longer. So The first is Sex.

Primitive man fight for living. Where big predators whistling pretending around them that they doesn't want to eat humans, but when human blink then GAME OVER DUDE!. In other words they have to defend them self or die. Hunger smells in the air i wonder is there a chicken on stone age? Maybe they doesn't looks like nowadays which small light and cute they probably magnified 3x to 4x in size. They could had killed them roast or bake how do you like it hun? But i don't think they able to fry it because they haven't found a hard shining plate that called steel at that time. Oh excuse the babble if on stone ages there was a frying pan and gas has invented at that timethere might be a KFC store (d'oh like flintstones?) and were could have been having a good relationship with aliens now. They kill living creature for food or maybe they have a fight between human and eat the body. The second is food and hunger.

and, what happened between 28 July 1914 - 11 November 1918 around europe? There's a person facing a monitor with a line graphic, radars, and radio transmitter, a large center of defense, where high end computers line up on the tables one man each table to discover new informations, it hundreds of them. There is no chance to open up YouTube and watch From First to Last music video or just practicing guitar from top guitarist lessons. Blood shed, millions bullets scattered on the ground, fire soars in the air, thousand bombs thrown, the result? World War I million peoples are dead when facing the time. They still young and strong, oh fuck the people who invented guns and explosive my second cousin's grand father lost his hand on a war that caused by a land mine. Fuck the people killing each other for the sake of their God. Fuck the people who is crazy, kill and rape his girlfriend, fuck the tribes held a war between and chop each other with blade, there's still many important thing to do rather than doing that things. Fuck the people who blow their emotion lightly because of silly things, fuck the people angry on what chords is misplayed, wrong finger pressing, and hard to teach, fuck the people who do not be patient on teaching their pupils, fuck the teachers, fuck the schools fuck everybody who hate us. So The Third is war, anger, unbearable emotion.

i hate this post genuinely. I made this post because i can't hold it my brother and sister become crazy lately

Prejudiced Resentment

Feel the rain touch
the smell of wet grass wetted soil
the breezing air
a cup of nail warm english breakfast
shelter under the rainbow colored umbrella
disgraced value of self-importance